Monday, May 24, 2010

Tiny pockets of abnormality

Z has given me his summer cold, which, in addition to three days of angry stomach, is making it impossible to sleep for more than a few hours at a time.

I dreamt that I invented a device called the Etruscan Head Clamp. It looked like a gladiator helmet. The EHC was used on customers who check out samples of carpet & linoleum & it would squeeze one's head like a vice until the samples were returned to the flooring department.

I can feel the anxiety creeping back into my brain like squiggly little baby spiders. This begins with a random twitch here & there, followed by another & another until suddenly I am overwhelmed by the swarming, wriggling sensation of ick. Maybe it's the heat. The world seems like a very cranky place these days. Everybody needs a cookie. Or a frozen margarita.

I was working in the garden center today & a little girl of about eight or so told me You are very unlucky to have this job. I replied Things could always be worse. I feel lucky to be working at all, even if it means being outside in the 90 degree heat.

I am having difficulty making sense of things. Also: I could really, really use a lemon-lime slushie right about now, but I think they're pretty hard to come by at 4 a.m. so I shall have to settle for a glass of ice water.

I feel as though I have reached a point where I lack the necessary drive to succeed at anything but this may be an illusion. The Moon has appeared in my last two tarot readings, so it's possible that I am letting my imagination mess with my head these days.


Kathleen said...

Yes, the frozen margarita or the lemon-lime slushie both sound good.

I had trouble sleeping last night, too, but I think it was as much my husband's snoring as the heat.

...As he has a cold, which he gave me...but I have been baking mine out in the sun.

Annandale Dream Gazette said...

Hi Susan,

May I include the dream paragraph of your post in the Annandale Dream Gazette?

--Lynn Behrendt

Susan said...

@Kathleen - Whenever I think of margaritas, I am reminded of your poem about Lot's wife!

@Lynn - Sounds like fun! I'd love to be a part of it :)

Dana said...

I want that head clamp, not for myself but to use on others. Though I might feel bad about clamping someone's head inside it. A little bad.

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