Mythology and Milk

August is almost over and it smells like fall and rain already.

I am moving through life as quietly as possible, under trying circumstances.  Both of my parents have dementia and are now in a Memory Care Facility, which has been very, very stressful. I am trying to make peace with all that comes along with such things.  It's not easy.

It throws the whole family dynamic into such an uproar.  Feels chaotic and sad and overwhelming, to say the least.  It makes the future seem incredibly bleak.

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I had my first loading dose of Benlysta this week, as well as my first Reclast infusion.  This went well, with no major side effects other than drop-dead exhaustion lasting about two days.  I do have some monster joint pain happening, with my leg flaring up, as well as intense shoulder pain and a stiff achy jaw that makes trying to chew rather unpleasant.  I don't think this is related to the infusion.  Probably just Rheumatic-Disease-Business-As-Usual.   I am hopeful this will be the right treatment for me, but it will take several months to see if this is going to work.  I dream of getting off Prednisone!  Time will tell.

Gastroparesis symptoms are flaring up again, unfortunately.  Had a cup of ginger tea for breakfast and
I plan on getting my juicer going today.  I think I need a couple of days back on the liquid diet to get my guts to calm the fuck down.  I love food, but it doesn't love me back. Alas.

I am still learning how to live in a body that doesn't work quite right.

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I am re-watching Game of Thrones from the beginning because I find comfort in the familiarity of revisiting my favorite shows.

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With the recent turn in the weather I feel like cooking, but my stomach is being a jerk.  I think this calls for soup.